Saturday, August 25, 2012

Anamika: An anecdote of a fragrant candle which is being blown out


Preface
There are occasions when we want to be quiet and be understood. There are times when we feel like opening ourselves up to the world so that someone might chance to pay heed to what we are yelling out. Also there are times when we do everything possible to make our dear ones understand what we really think, what we really feel when they think that we are completely inebriated or out of our minds. People take different paths at this juncture, probably with great pain and agony. This is the story of a girl who got stranded in the labyrinth of life and sensing the aloofness of her heart trying to figure her way out of the mesh.
Anamika means nameless: hence she can be one of you or may be myself. Still this story is just a story and you might find it least convincing. Well, here pops up the questions of family bondages, fidelity, relationship stresses and the vengeance that is part and parcel of the universal phenomenon called LOVE. Love in its vigorous forms adds colours to your life and at times how vicious it can not be! This is also the story of people who have loved and lost. There are characters that resemble many of our acquaintances. You might or might not have come across people whom I introduce to you. To some extend I think we all are types. At the same time we are special in our own ways.
This is a world full of emotions, anxieties, greed, grudge and reprisal. Still I believe love can light a candle which can brighten the micro space it occupies and opening the windows of our heart is what we should do to be sensitive to be exposed to the light of virtue that is around us. I believe sometime, somewhere in our distant future we will all be united, we will all be threaded together onto the fabric of love and we will solve the bewildering puzzle of life thus!

Thursday, June 28, 2012

The story of a purgation

There she stood with a rose in her heart!
No one noticed the petals getting
melted in her blood, but I.
Ruthlessly I asked her who she was
Her eyes then became oceans
and they were saddened
I felt they were pleading
Oh no! those eyes showered arrows of sorrow!
and her shivering lips said something
which I never foresaw
She came right here and murmured
"Oh, you don't know me?
Turn back and look back at the mirror!
Still can't you get me?
Well, I am the You whom
You were trying to smother,
who was crushed under your spells,
Yes, I am You, the You whom
You always wanted to forsake!"
Saying this she came closer to me
and washed my heart with her tears and blood
and thereafter I became Pure and Complete!





Thursday, June 7, 2012

വാക്ക്‌

ഒരിക്കലെന്നെ നീ പിരിഞ്ഞുപോ -
മെങ്കിലന്നടക്കി നിര്‍ത്തുമെന്‍ കരച്ചില്‍ത്തിരകളെ
വെറുത്തുകൊണ്ടെന്നെ നീ അറുത്ത്  മാറ്റും  നിന്ന-
രിയ ജീവിതചിറകില്‍നിന്നെങ്കില്‍ ഞാന്‍
തനിച്ചിരുന്നൊട്ടു  കരയുമെങ്കിലും
നിലം പതിക്കുകില്ലോരിറ്റു   നീര്‍മണി

ഏതു കൈകള്‍ പുനര്‍ന്നെടുത്തീടിലും
ഏതു വാത്സല്യത്തിരകള്‍ തഴുകിലും
ഒരിക്കല്‍ നിന്നെ ഞാനറിഞ്ഞതില്ലേ-
ന്നൊരൊറ്റ  വാക്കിന്‍ വിഷം തീണ്ടുമെങ്കിലോ
തമസ്സില്‍ നിന്‍ ദുഖങ്ങളെ തേജോമയമാക്കി
ഉദിച്ചുയരും ഞാനങ്ങകലെ  നക്ഷത്രമായ്‌ 

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

നിന്റെ വിരല്തുംബുരുംമി
ഞാന്‍ നടന്ന ഇന്നലെകള്‍
മനസ്സില്‍ മഴയായ് പൊഴിയുന്നു

കണ്ണിലെ പരിഭവം കവിളില്‍ നുള്ളി
നീ അലിയിച്ചു കളഞ്ഞപ്പോള്‍
സൂര്യന്‍ ഉദിച്ചത് നമ്മുടെ ഹൃദയങ്ങളിലല്ലേ

ഉത്തരമില്ലാത്ത ആയിരം ചോദ്യങ്ങള്‍
നിന്നിലെക്കെറിഞ്ഞു ഞാന്‍ നിശബ്ദയാകുമ്പോള്‍
കനലെരിഞ്ഞത് നിന്റെ ആത്മാവിലല്ലേ

ഇനിയൊരിക്കല്‍ നാം തമ്മില്‍ കണ്ടേക്കാം
തുമ്പികള്‍ക്ക് പിന്നാലെ പാഞ്ഞ ഭൂതകാലം
തിരികെയോടി വന്നേക്കാം
ഉത്സവതിരക്കിനിടയില്‍ പ്രണയഅതുരമായി നീട്ടിയ
നോട്ടങ്ങള്‍ പിന്നെയും നമ്മെ ചുട്ടു പൊള്ളിച്ചേക്കാം

എന്നിരുന്നാലും നിത്യ സ്നേഹത്തിന്റെ
കനലെരിയുന്ന എന്റെ ആത്മാവില്‍
അന്നും ഇന്നും എന്നും നീ ചേര്‍ന്നിരിക്കുന്നു
ഏതു കുത്തോഴുക്കിനും കനല്‍ക്കാറ്റിനും
തുടചെടുക്കനാവാതെ എരിച്ചടക്കാനാവാതെ
ആത്മാവിലലിഞ്ഞിരിക്കുന്നു

പ്രിയനേ നിന്നെ ഞാന്‍ പ്രണയിക്കുന്നു....

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Fire at your finger tips
scorched my soul
I was helpless and spellbound

My burning soul yelled out
that I love you
sorrows vaporised faded my vision
I closed my eyes tight

Vision is clear now
And what remains are
your footprints in my bleeding heart!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Enchanting your presence is,
Magical your fingers are,
When you run them down my hair
I dream of stars.

Light of your eyes,
Love in your embrace,
Passion at your lips
cast spells on me.

Why do I love you,
when you say that
you don't belong to me?

True, you are not mine
and I'm not yours
Yet, we need us
to be in love, bliss and freedom.

Still there's a mystery and it's my misery!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

another time to go back
going back to the wet long nights,
to the endless lingering
and perhaps to the final days of my own life
who knows it all?

Rain drops forging patterns in the sacred pond
Dawns are still beautiful
as they give hope to meet your eyes
somewhere among that silent crowd
making their way to the temple

On a Sunday after the mass
somewhere there around the Church
Or may be on a Friday afternoon
Who knows where you are!

I have to tell you something...
that I am scared
During nights like this when my sleep's fled
and restlessly roaming somewhere there
I smell the freshly brought jasmine flowers
hear the drums and see the vermilion marks
I can feel the uneasiness of my caretakers

Oh before I got handed over
I must meet you
and tell you that
this is not what i want.